I want to run, run away from everything, i feel like i have wasted a lot of my time, like i’m trapped in some kind of confined space that only i can see, I’ve made a terrible mistake and i’m not even going to write what it is because lets face it, who the fuck is even gonna read it. I want all of this to just GO AWAY i want everything back. I want to feel like i’m not a total waste of space, i want to feel lucky for once because everything I’ve been through has just brought me more and more bad luck. I can’t possibly imagine that anyone could understand, because things that have happened to me won’t have happened to ever a quarter of people and that’s the saddest bit about everything. The fact that even if i pour my heart out to people it either gets thrown back in my face or they just don’t understand and that’s when you know your completely alone.